Paediatric in memory...

Assalamualaikum...

Paediatric posting dh berakhir sebulan lalu...now, i'm at surgery posting rotation.. From my previous post, you can see how frust and worried i'm about my performance in the end of posting examination.. seriously, i want to delete that memory, but yet, that is what we call....EXPERIENCE..... How bitter it is, i'm still really2 appreciate it.. 

Yes, of course we afraid of.... F_I_.... *takot nak sebut* haisshhhh... but when I ask myself, for future, can i be a good and save doctor for my patient.....??? the reality in front is much more scarier.. we often heard about, 'the doctor do mistake here and there...careless..blablabla....' but yet, we still a normal person, cannot run from any mistake....Hopefully Allah guide me in every single step that i take.. aminn.....

Here i got 2 pictures..my beloved hero in the ward!!! hee~~ i spent a lot of time wif them compared to other kids.. *pilih kasih ke aku?* hehehee.. eh, nape baby boy je?? biaselah, baby girl sume ngengade skit,sush nk amik gmbo..hehehe 

                                              this ensem boy, DANIEL!!! =) kakak really miss u !!

this chubby boy, Azahari!! malay okeyh! chinese look kn...heheh, sush nk suro dia tgk camera, kene umpan dgn angry bird baru dia nk tgk.... dia selalu ckp, 'maceh'....so cuteeeeeeee!!!

Ape penyakit bebudk ni??? oppsss!! sorryyyy! due to medical ethics, i can't reveal the information.. it is private and confidential okeyh.... =) sebenrnye, amik gmbo pon x bley....tapi juz wanna share my experience, besides, their mommy are so sporting!! =)

Even though, i felt paediatric posting is sooooo difficult, surely because this is my first posting, the beginning is always the hardest.. but i'm really enjoy every single moment with those kids plus i do love kids okeyh!!!

Compared to surgery, it's totally different, b'coz we deal with adult and elderly patient either male or female.... a bit uncomfortable, b'coz we need to examine male patient.....ermmm......i guess you guys understand what i want to mention here... but, i always remind myself, treat them as you treat your father, father is also a man right... =) dear pakcik2 at sibu, please allow me to examine you...=) so far, there are so sporting and very cooperative... =)

Huh, so much to tell you guys, but need to stop here rite now...hee~ May ALLAH smoothen my way in surgery posting n next2 posting....plez guide me YA Allah.... *semoga aku lebih rajin* T_T

Sekian, salm dari Sibu =)

Kunjungan.....

Assalamualaikum...

Di saat hati rapuh, jiwa terasa lemah, terasa ingin rebah....Allah hadirkan seseorang untuk membelai dan memujuk hati ini.... memujuk bukn dgn manisnya bicara manusia, tetapi memujuk dgn kata2 peringatan dpdNya... Sungguh hati terasa segar kembali... =)

Masih ingat Doa Rabitah hati? yg sering dialunkn di skolah dulu... masih terasa genggaman tangan sahabat-sahabat, erat di jemari, lidah same2 melafazkan..terasa berpadu di hati....ya, sumber kekuatan yg tanpa kita sedari menjadi pendinding diri, kita tidak akn terasa keseorangan... itu yg aku rasekn saat2 alam persekolahan dahulu.... Kemudian zaman matrikulasi mengambil alih....jiwa terasa sepi seketika, hati terdetik, 'tidak mengapa, mungkin setahun sahaja perasaan ini, universiti nanti pasti akn kembali merasai saat itu'.....

Sehingga kini, hati masih sepi...sudh lame tidak terlafaz doa rabitah hati berjemaah....aku akui, aku pun sudah lupe dgn alunannya.... =( lumrah...tidak amal,maka lupe..... sedih.... diri sendiri yg tidak mahu mengamalkan...sepatutnya alunan 'hati ini telah bersatu.....' yg bergema, tapi aku terasa bagai hati aku dh berkecai menjadi keping2..... seperti yg aku katakn tad...rapuh....

Tetapi....hati ini kembali bertaut..............=) Kunjungannya...seorg sahabat lama...memberi erti yg sgt mendalam....

Subuh berjemaah yg akan diingati sampai bile2...alunan yg meruntun jiwa...doa diaminkn..... saat bersalam...al- ma'thurat bersama......sungguh aku rindu...aku mengaku...ia jarang berlaku......... =(((((((((...terasa diri kerdil..... sepanjang saat2 ini berlaku, sungguh aku sebak sepanjang masa... mahu sahaja terlafaz... 'please stay here with me....guide me to the path that we once go through together....please...'

Kunjungan yg terkesan di hati....terkesan jauh dilubuk hati yg paling dalam.....ya, seminggu yg sgt sekejap... =((((((( Alhamdulillah...terima kasih ya Allah kesempatan yg diberikan...ukhwah keranaMu sgt indah dan manis... redhailah kami....rahmatilah kami...berilah perlindungan kpd kami..


Sahabat =)
semua kenangan disimpan kemas dlm hati...sudah pasti...
terima kasih atas segalanya...
same2 kita saling ingat mengingati...
tangisan biar aku simpan sendiri...

Salam ukhwah~
 

cuti raya..

assalamualaikum sume...

Exam End of posting bru je abes....

1 hari langsai sume MEQ,SAQ,BAQ,MCQ,OSCE...

then, 1 hari lagi langsai sume 1 long case, 2 short case...

2 hari yg kelam kabut..tapi bile habis....masyaAllah...leganye............

but...hati resah mengenangkn exam yg dah lepas...nightmare...

redha..pasrah..tawakal....

1st time exam clinical, agak terabur ye performance aku....

terkejut...shock!!

agak sedih disini... =(

aku dpt long case, acute bronchiolitis.

short case, VSD(ventricular septal defect) & cerebral palsy...

kwn2..sila doakn saya....

skrg sudh ade dirumah...2 weeks cuti...

then, surgery posting is waiting for me...

lgi tough... kne strong anatomy...blablabla...

rmai lecturer myanmar..dgrnye garang2....

mga dprmudhkn...

overall, rasenye aku suke dgn posting paediatric ni... =)

interesting...jumpe budk2 kn...xde lah stress sgt...

tibe2 rase nak jadi paediatrician plak... =)

but still 3 more posting is awaiting...

mane tau yg lain tu lgi best kn... huhuh...

sekian..

selamat mencari lailatulqadar....

salam aidilfitri..

menangis di dalam...

assalamualaikum


hari ini dgr luahan seorg emak kpd baby umur 5 buln..
kamu tahu HIE?.. hypoxic -ischaemic encephalopathy..
cube google...fhmkn sendri..


niat hati ingin jenguk saje...
isolated room..tidak berani nk masuk..
ckup stakat mahu tahu baby sakit ape..
tidak sangka si emak mngajak berbual..

tibe2 si emak..
suara sebak, sudah serak..
ye,saye nmpk air mata mngalir...saya diam..x mampu berkata
saya tidk bertnya, si emak terus bercerita....

saya..
hati sudah sebak...
cuba mmhmi hati seorang emak...
sya rase sakit...menangis di dlm..
tapi si emak mesti lgi sakit....


si emak tabah..
dia redha...dia sabar...masih kuat smgt...


mga Ramadhan ini mmbwa rahmat dan berkat buat mereka..
ganjran yg lgi besar untuk mreka..insyaAllah...


medical student..ye,kite kena wat history taking, salin setiap ape yg si emak beritahu..
tpi kadang2, letak tepi itu semua..
duduk dgn mreka, from heart-to-heart..
not from mouth-to-note only....


mereka bercerita,kite menyalin...
buknkah itu tidak manis, tidak selesa.?
ibarat reporter...


sesekali..pandang kedlm mata mreka...
they need someone to talk to...
just make yourself free...
listen to them...
that's how you learn...


dear doctor,
we didn't treat the disease only, but we treat their soul..
soft-spoken will make them better...
kdg2 mreka bukn nak mkn ubat sgt, they need our concern...


PEOPLE DON'T CARE HOW MUCH YOU KNOW,
UNTIL THEY KNOW HOW MUCH YOU CARE...


salam ramadhan~
jumuah mubarakah...

hati yang menangis..

Assalamualaikum


Hati yang sedang menangis..
saat orang lain tidak menyedarinya,saat itu rasa sakitnya ibarat tertusuk...


okeyh,exam lgi 1 week..
my 1st exam for clinical year...
STRESS nye hnya Allah yg tahu...
sebab itu mudah terasa,org buat sikit,emo x memasal...


diri masih terkapai-kapai...
masih serabut...
cuba nak kejar mcm2...
cara belajar baru...
sudah sebulan lebih tapi masih x adapt..


nana oh nana..
bangkitlah!!!


-salam Ramadhan-

doctor's heart..

salam dari sibu =)

assalamualaikum...

Finally, tertitip juga catatan dpd Sibu ni.... =) 3 weeks nak adapt dgn suasana baru clinical year ni.... =( Sedang cuba untuk mencari masa2 optimum untuk study. Kerap kali tidur awal sebab seharian berada di hospital...Penat kot!!! but yet it was a great experience!! =) Baru hari ni dapat stay up,itupun setelah tidur petang yg SGGGTTT lame!!!!!!!!! 2 jam...huhuhu... itu pun buknnye utilize betol2 saat stay up ni, hanya cube yg termampu...

Sampai hari ni, x berkesempatan nak snap picture kat wad paediatric.. sape berani,buat lah..nak kene ganyang dgn nurse,stafnurse, HO,MO,specialist!!!!! hamik ko!! x berani lah aku...nak minta signature after clerking patient pon kemain susah lagi...some of them refused to....so...sabar jelah....

Nak citer pengalamn yg bru 3 weeks ni pon ase cam x ckup tgn nak taip.......so much to share but paham2 jelah...malas den...hehehe..

So far, alhamdulillah... most of the patient sgt2 cooperative,tapi mcm2 ragam!!!! Ade tu yg patient iban, penat aku introduce diri..blablabla...tibe2 dia ckp,' tak tahu.tak tahu'!! paham lah aku...upenye aunty tu x pndai ckp melayu...see....bukn org oversea je yg sush nk communicate, yg duk sarawak ni pon dh sush nk communicate.. Tapi ade jugak yg sgt2 friendly, citer dpd A-Z...smp sush aku nk stop kn...huhuhu... 

Bile posting kat wad kanak2 ni,phm2 jelah..perangai budk2 unpredictable..ade yg melalak je kejenye...nak wat cane, diorg tgh sakit kn...mestilah x selesa...tu yg x dpt buat PE(physical examination), x dpt nak auscultate pon..last2, esoknye time BST (bedside teaching), menanah lah telinga kene mrh dgn lecturer sebb x dpt wat PE.... x pe lah..learning process....

Ok, nak share ilmu baru.. let's learn bahasa IBAN!!

1. Sapa nama dik?
2. Nama sakit ya?
3. Bisi angat/batuk/sakit pala/cirit-birit?
4. Dini dik tinggal?
5. Udeh makai?
6. Udeh tinduak?
7. Nama berita?
8. Aku gerai!
9. Udeh pulai?

Interesting rite?!! thnx u so much to mother of Angelina coz spend your time to teach me this language =)

The beginning is always the hardest....
mga mendapat pengakhiran yg baik dlm setiap ape yg aku lakukan ya Allah...