surgery posting

Assalamualaikum

A lot of story to tell..but i'm not in the middle to write those thing... that's how the end of posting examination did totally change my mood.... always hope for the best, but He knows better.... i try my best, but it end up with...not like what i thought... =( plez pray for me...

Berikanlah pengakhiran yg baik ya Allah... Aku serahkan sepenuhnya kebergantunganku kpdMu...

Finally...surgery posting is over.... hi medicine posting! Please guide me all the way ya Allah...

Ni gmbr b4 msuk OT..haruslah bergambr ye...bukn selalu nk pkai bju yg sterile ni... muke yg ceria tu tiada kene mengena dgn exam.. T_T

Dalam hati resah mngenang kn exam yg x habis2, rungutan stress yg sentiasa menemani, rase takot yg tidk bertepi..then...

someone told me..

'Langit ni terlalu luas untuk kesusahan yg kita hadapi'

'Jgn takot sgt, ade benda lgi yg kita kene lebih takot sbnrnye'

zaaappppp! Sentap! Allahuakbar....memg lah aku ni hmba yg kerdil sgt2....luluh jntung mengenang kn khilaf diri ni..... =( syukran sahabat atas ingatan...

sekian....

lupa???!!

Assalamualaikum...

Semakin dilupakan....

Masa susah, mari bersama....
Masa senang, eh, lupelah??

Tak mengapa, tiada yg rugi..
Cuma berkecil hati.....
Tapi tiada siapa peduli...

Masa ini mule kita tahu..
Sayang manusia dan sayang Ilahi...

Mari pilih sendiri....
Jgn salahkn sesiapa,kita yg pilih sendri...

Ok, sekian..

exam lagi.....wink*wink*

Assalamualaikum...

9 minggu yg terase pantas.....tinggal 1 week je lagi before end of posting examination...

Masih byk yg ingin dibace...

masih terkejar2 dgn pelbagai benda....

Tapi malas itu tetap ada...

Saya juga manusia biasa...

momentum terkadang ada, terkadang tiada...

kecewa dgn sikap sendiri... =(

Sedang cuba baiki diri...

Mohon shbt2 saling ingt mengingati...

Mohon didoakn diri ini....

Paediatric in memory...

Assalamualaikum...

Paediatric posting dh berakhir sebulan lalu...now, i'm at surgery posting rotation.. From my previous post, you can see how frust and worried i'm about my performance in the end of posting examination.. seriously, i want to delete that memory, but yet, that is what we call....EXPERIENCE..... How bitter it is, i'm still really2 appreciate it.. 

Yes, of course we afraid of.... F_I_.... *takot nak sebut* haisshhhh... but when I ask myself, for future, can i be a good and save doctor for my patient.....??? the reality in front is much more scarier.. we often heard about, 'the doctor do mistake here and there...careless..blablabla....' but yet, we still a normal person, cannot run from any mistake....Hopefully Allah guide me in every single step that i take.. aminn.....

Here i got 2 pictures..my beloved hero in the ward!!! hee~~ i spent a lot of time wif them compared to other kids.. *pilih kasih ke aku?* hehehee.. eh, nape baby boy je?? biaselah, baby girl sume ngengade skit,sush nk amik gmbo..hehehe 

                                              this ensem boy, DANIEL!!! =) kakak really miss u !!

this chubby boy, Azahari!! malay okeyh! chinese look kn...heheh, sush nk suro dia tgk camera, kene umpan dgn angry bird baru dia nk tgk.... dia selalu ckp, 'maceh'....so cuteeeeeeee!!!

Ape penyakit bebudk ni??? oppsss!! sorryyyy! due to medical ethics, i can't reveal the information.. it is private and confidential okeyh.... =) sebenrnye, amik gmbo pon x bley....tapi juz wanna share my experience, besides, their mommy are so sporting!! =)

Even though, i felt paediatric posting is sooooo difficult, surely because this is my first posting, the beginning is always the hardest.. but i'm really enjoy every single moment with those kids plus i do love kids okeyh!!!

Compared to surgery, it's totally different, b'coz we deal with adult and elderly patient either male or female.... a bit uncomfortable, b'coz we need to examine male patient.....ermmm......i guess you guys understand what i want to mention here... but, i always remind myself, treat them as you treat your father, father is also a man right... =) dear pakcik2 at sibu, please allow me to examine you...=) so far, there are so sporting and very cooperative... =)

Huh, so much to tell you guys, but need to stop here rite now...hee~ May ALLAH smoothen my way in surgery posting n next2 posting....plez guide me YA Allah.... *semoga aku lebih rajin* T_T

Sekian, salm dari Sibu =)

Kunjungan.....

Assalamualaikum...

Di saat hati rapuh, jiwa terasa lemah, terasa ingin rebah....Allah hadirkan seseorang untuk membelai dan memujuk hati ini.... memujuk bukn dgn manisnya bicara manusia, tetapi memujuk dgn kata2 peringatan dpdNya... Sungguh hati terasa segar kembali... =)

Masih ingat Doa Rabitah hati? yg sering dialunkn di skolah dulu... masih terasa genggaman tangan sahabat-sahabat, erat di jemari, lidah same2 melafazkan..terasa berpadu di hati....ya, sumber kekuatan yg tanpa kita sedari menjadi pendinding diri, kita tidak akn terasa keseorangan... itu yg aku rasekn saat2 alam persekolahan dahulu.... Kemudian zaman matrikulasi mengambil alih....jiwa terasa sepi seketika, hati terdetik, 'tidak mengapa, mungkin setahun sahaja perasaan ini, universiti nanti pasti akn kembali merasai saat itu'.....

Sehingga kini, hati masih sepi...sudh lame tidak terlafaz doa rabitah hati berjemaah....aku akui, aku pun sudah lupe dgn alunannya.... =( lumrah...tidak amal,maka lupe..... sedih.... diri sendiri yg tidak mahu mengamalkan...sepatutnya alunan 'hati ini telah bersatu.....' yg bergema, tapi aku terasa bagai hati aku dh berkecai menjadi keping2..... seperti yg aku katakn tad...rapuh....

Tetapi....hati ini kembali bertaut..............=) Kunjungannya...seorg sahabat lama...memberi erti yg sgt mendalam....

Subuh berjemaah yg akan diingati sampai bile2...alunan yg meruntun jiwa...doa diaminkn..... saat bersalam...al- ma'thurat bersama......sungguh aku rindu...aku mengaku...ia jarang berlaku......... =(((((((((...terasa diri kerdil..... sepanjang saat2 ini berlaku, sungguh aku sebak sepanjang masa... mahu sahaja terlafaz... 'please stay here with me....guide me to the path that we once go through together....please...'

Kunjungan yg terkesan di hati....terkesan jauh dilubuk hati yg paling dalam.....ya, seminggu yg sgt sekejap... =((((((( Alhamdulillah...terima kasih ya Allah kesempatan yg diberikan...ukhwah keranaMu sgt indah dan manis... redhailah kami....rahmatilah kami...berilah perlindungan kpd kami..


Sahabat =)
semua kenangan disimpan kemas dlm hati...sudah pasti...
terima kasih atas segalanya...
same2 kita saling ingat mengingati...
tangisan biar aku simpan sendiri...

Salam ukhwah~
 

cuti raya..

assalamualaikum sume...

Exam End of posting bru je abes....

1 hari langsai sume MEQ,SAQ,BAQ,MCQ,OSCE...

then, 1 hari lagi langsai sume 1 long case, 2 short case...

2 hari yg kelam kabut..tapi bile habis....masyaAllah...leganye............

but...hati resah mengenangkn exam yg dah lepas...nightmare...

redha..pasrah..tawakal....

1st time exam clinical, agak terabur ye performance aku....

terkejut...shock!!

agak sedih disini... =(

aku dpt long case, acute bronchiolitis.

short case, VSD(ventricular septal defect) & cerebral palsy...

kwn2..sila doakn saya....

skrg sudh ade dirumah...2 weeks cuti...

then, surgery posting is waiting for me...

lgi tough... kne strong anatomy...blablabla...

rmai lecturer myanmar..dgrnye garang2....

mga dprmudhkn...

overall, rasenye aku suke dgn posting paediatric ni... =)

interesting...jumpe budk2 kn...xde lah stress sgt...

tibe2 rase nak jadi paediatrician plak... =)

but still 3 more posting is awaiting...

mane tau yg lain tu lgi best kn... huhuh...

sekian..

selamat mencari lailatulqadar....

salam aidilfitri..

menangis di dalam...

assalamualaikum


hari ini dgr luahan seorg emak kpd baby umur 5 buln..
kamu tahu HIE?.. hypoxic -ischaemic encephalopathy..
cube google...fhmkn sendri..


niat hati ingin jenguk saje...
isolated room..tidak berani nk masuk..
ckup stakat mahu tahu baby sakit ape..
tidak sangka si emak mngajak berbual..

tibe2 si emak..
suara sebak, sudah serak..
ye,saye nmpk air mata mngalir...saya diam..x mampu berkata
saya tidk bertnya, si emak terus bercerita....

saya..
hati sudah sebak...
cuba mmhmi hati seorang emak...
sya rase sakit...menangis di dlm..
tapi si emak mesti lgi sakit....


si emak tabah..
dia redha...dia sabar...masih kuat smgt...


mga Ramadhan ini mmbwa rahmat dan berkat buat mereka..
ganjran yg lgi besar untuk mreka..insyaAllah...


medical student..ye,kite kena wat history taking, salin setiap ape yg si emak beritahu..
tpi kadang2, letak tepi itu semua..
duduk dgn mreka, from heart-to-heart..
not from mouth-to-note only....


mereka bercerita,kite menyalin...
buknkah itu tidak manis, tidak selesa.?
ibarat reporter...


sesekali..pandang kedlm mata mreka...
they need someone to talk to...
just make yourself free...
listen to them...
that's how you learn...


dear doctor,
we didn't treat the disease only, but we treat their soul..
soft-spoken will make them better...
kdg2 mreka bukn nak mkn ubat sgt, they need our concern...


PEOPLE DON'T CARE HOW MUCH YOU KNOW,
UNTIL THEY KNOW HOW MUCH YOU CARE...


salam ramadhan~
jumuah mubarakah...